| Acknowledgments: | xi |
| Preface: | xv |
| Prologue: Through the Fog | 1 |
| Chapter 1 | The Waters around Me | 13 |
| Chapter 2 | Good Times | 27 |
| Chapter 3 | Shiny Happy People | 37 |
| Chapter 4 | Thunderstruck | 59 |
| Chapter 5 | The Clock Ticks | 81 |
| Chapter 6 | Pain and Sorrow | 119 |
| Chapter 7 | Crashing by Design | 141 |
| Chapter 8 | Sacrifice | 163 |
| Chapter 9 | Ripples | 175 |
| Chapter 10 | Smoke and Mirrors | 197 |
| Chapter 11 | Something Better | 217 |
| Chapter 12 | Brothers (And Sisters) in Arms | 233 |
| Chapter 13 | All that Counts | 253 |
| Chapter 14 | Hearts Ripped Out | 271 |
| Chapter 15 | Relay Racing | 287 |
| Chapter 16 | Slices of the Pie | 305 |
| Chapter 17 | Rocking the Boat | 321 |
| Chapter 18 | The Edge of the Stage | 339 |
| Chapter 19 | A Poverty of Expectation | 359 |
| Chapter 20 | So Strange | 371 |
| Chapter 21 | Courage | 383 |
| Chapter 22 | Collapse | 399 |
| Chapter 23 | A Dirty Day | 443 |
| Chapter 24 | Speaking Life | 479 |
| Epilogue: "Beat Army, Sir!" | 491 |
| Illustration Credits: | 495 |